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The Novelist

ruttn
"I am Rüttn Stârjnä. I am a unicorn fart. I was born out of the butthole of a unicorn called Nikaisora. Someday i'll die. Between now and then i'm going to keep my shit together and sing my fucking heart out. I love unicorns. They're my people. One day i'll write a real biography."

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21 and 12 hrs old. Tuesday, July 31, 2007 |

oh! yea! yea! birthday!!! today! yeay!




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whatever...





and let us all pray for Erin's grandfather for his departure... May he rest in peace.

Thats all it takes. Saturday, July 28, 2007 |

Soon, we'll disappear.
Im tired now.
To even blog bout what had happened.
No one cares anyway.
Heh.
Beware the unicorn.
Enjoy your Sunday.
Before,
You've left with only one breath more.




Thursday night at Arab St. Thursday, July 26, 2007 |

Feeling draggy from the torment i faced the past few days,
I slept early last night.
And the phone rang,
my brother woke me up, i dragged my feet over to the phone.
It was Izy.
She forced me to meet her and her 2 friends
Or she will not be talking to me anymore.
And it was 11pm.

So i rushed, showered, took the train and arrived.
1 hr later.
Met them at Ambrosia.
I saw izy at first and the i saw Maria and
another girl who's here for a vacation who likes to say,
"Nooooooooo...."

It was great knowing them
though im the only guy
and the hole in my pocket.
Izy forever makes me nervous.
Well, its nice meeting you friend,
and yeah, i hope your trip to KL will
be a wonderful one.
Go talk to your BF.
And i think Maria is cool.
And that she'd too love to go to Nepal,
Trek along the silk road,
And she can speak singlish within 10 mths.
And yes, she stays at a Clementi HDB unit by herself.
For a german girl.
Thats just so awesome.

And yeah, they say they'd like to meet me on my bday.
I dont know. It'll be nice.



Oh well, im cheered up now... Thank you.

letter thing. Wednesday, July 25, 2007 |

hello.

No. Im not heartbroken.
Just disappointed though.
I failed to make someone happy and secure.
It should have been that way.

Nevertheless,
Its like letting a bird from the cage free.
And you can only hope for it's return.
Cos if you know you've been treating it well,
Then, it will come back if it appreciate your treatment while being caged.

I need help though.
Anyone, be it a large group or whatever, to spend my bday with me
Im not sure if the promise she said still holds.
If it does, i'll be glad.
Cos my parents are leaving the state.
I'll be fckn lonely if theres none with me.

Anyone?



no, yer not a heartbreaker... you need time to think. you're confused and lost. take care...

A Story Of A Lonely Guy Monday, July 23, 2007 |

Thank you.
He's not appreciated...

You've made him wasted his time,
effort, and everything else.

Its a down feeling...

He hope something happens,
No, not revenge... But,
To make it clear to her,
The good dont come around that much.
And it wont wait for long.
But he waited though it rains alot.

Yet.

She thrashed it just like that.

"O-V-E-R"
And the simple word "thank you"
To replaced all the things he did?


No heart at all.
But she's just as stubborn and confuse as ever...

What did he do wrong?
Cheated? Lied?
He was tortured, unappreciated.
Drenched with disappointment yet he survived.
Yet he keeps the phonecalls coming when she's lonely and bored.
He took off his time and money and effort and risks trying to ger closer.
Yet he cares.
He didnt mind all that he has done.
And he didnt give up after all that he went through.
Cos,
he loves her.
He really do.

Her mom was right.
Love someone for his/her love for you.
But she ignores.

All that.
Well, maybe...
to be replaced by a new toy.
No warranty.
And the battery that can be used once only.


He will be around though.
He will be here.
Being left just like that after all hope was given.
I think i heard him cry.

He will still wait though.
Cos he made a promise to prove her wrong.
And he swore that he loves her before
I think, maybe he's being sincere and true.

Maybe one day she'll fall.
Maybe one day she'll realise
And if she wants to come back,
He will always welcome her,
Arms wide open...



"...and the whole cuddling thing makes me feel lala. like totally and i dont know why i got o close to you but i hope you dont mind tho"

Go Go Smear The Poison Ivy. |

I dont know,
maybe you guys can answer this.

Would you waste your time with someone who's been there for you?
Or
Would you rather waste your time with someone you dont trust?

A wise choice is needed,
mistakes made,
learn,
do not repeat it anymore.

The cycle can be stopped,
If you take one new bold step.
Feelings can be changed,
If you want it changed,
Its how you look at it.

You're blinded now.
Blinded by the already golden words and actions,
And you ignore the diamond beneath the rocks.
Leaving it unwanted and sad,
Cos it hopes to be picked up.
For theres much more he can do
To make you happy

But he cant now. He's still stuck in he rocks...
Only waiting to be given a chance and picked up...

editted andriod. |


The forever sweet one,
And im still very much yadayadayada.





And meet Adri! Sharr's super cute neice
who runs around the house i think...

The International Noise Company |

And the boredom takes over when you're gone.
No, im not complaining...
In fact im glad we actually get closer as time passes by.
To that someone, you know its you the ever so cute one. Hahaha.
Thank you.

I'd like to emphasize on this... I ReAallY HatE pEEPS WhO tYpe LiKe ThIs.
And pictures like this is disturbing...












Im not so sure if we
really take notice of what is happening around us.
We often complain bout how our life is.
Here, let me recap...



I do hope you guys can open up your eyes to those who really need it.
Your actions may be small but it means big to them.
Treasure your life though its sucky,
cos they're suffering more than you
Yet they live on.

Dont take things for granted... Be grateful.
Love those who have been taking care of you.
Shelter you and growing you up.
For without them, you probably wont be seeing this message now...

welcome to the suck Sunday, July 22, 2007 |

Its nice to hear the sweet though perky voice last night.
Thank you Sharr.
I'll find it weird to not talk to you for a day already i think.

Bored, 24 hrs on the bed only to come out for
a jog or have my meals.
Skipped dinner.

Nothing much. Life suck, as usual.
Sometimes i feel like blaming Adam for eating the apple from the garden of eden.
But everything happens for a reason.
Nothing we can do bout it anyway.

And yes. I really dont get it.
Maybe its just me.
Is it girls who falls too easily for guys who can do the candytalk?
Or is it me who needs to learn more bout ways to get a girl by Mr.Hitch?
Cos it seems im losing, i think.
No, i dont do the wash my mouth with all the sweets in the world.
I cant.
It seems a lie to me.

Yet, they can still fall for one who can do the talk...

You see, ive got it all fuct up.
Failed. Very badly but its something that i really want.
Its like you just cant seem to give it up though you know you're losing.
And you don even know if theres hope to hold on to.

At least a lil hint of good news will make me happy for now.
But ive to take it slow and steady.
Be ready to catch if she's falling,
and to lend a shoulder when she's crying.

I'd do that. I will if theres a chance.
Will there be one? Only she knows.
But i can only hope. I can only wait.
Trying more only means losing.
So i shant.

Wait and hope. Thats what we all have been doing...

You Day Parade. Friday, July 20, 2007 |

I was so bored. I turned into a munster. Thanks for the topeng, Carl.

She's still the cutest to me by the way...
And im still --------



And guys who've made it through with me. We still smile though we thought we've had it so bad. We'll remember this number, 126/07.


humyn. |

This is why all of us are living here.
Its sad how we lost it.

But we've learnt something new.
We will learn as we go on.
Time is on our side.
But it'll never be long.

You and I, all of us, will die according to the master plan.
So embrace this moment of life.
Flourish it with any means of love.
Breathe in happiness.
Let go the hate.
Kill the evil.

Appreciate those who loves you,
For they may not be hanging around for so long.

And dont regret.
For it'll only waste your time.
Till my eyes shut tight...
We'll remember...


sweat sucks Wednesday, July 18, 2007 |

I am the president.
I am the very mischievious one.

But i can be the nicest too.
And im very shy at times like ----

So hello. Im less annoying now.
And im supposed to be on the news.

But it was raining. Heavily then disappeared.
I ran, we met, sweat sucks.
Letter passed, hello-goodbye.

And i dragged my way, turning back, walked ahead.
Hands down, went home.
Wanted to hug, but fucking wet.
The sweat, why the fucking sweat...



Its either about a boy that loves a girl or a girl who loves the boy.

And whadda ya know, i may be the coolest...

evening route march Tuesday, July 17, 2007 |

Its like a drama... really. Ups and downs... I hope it'll be like the usual endings. Happily ever after... But i can only hope and pray and be patient for now. And one can only wait for so long. You're the main character. Very important role though. Go scroll down, theres a message for you above the tagboard.

July Eisler |

Simple thing i just wanna put down.

SOMEONE just stole my heart so good.

Well, i was gonna blog about the past few days and how i've gone through backtrips and transitions of sorts but im too stunned to do anything right now. Like, anything at all. Cos i think someone obviously knows what ive been through. Really, it wasnt pleasant...

And yeah, how i wish to be able to meet that someone to make my day happy. Seriously, i need that. But im not sad or angry now, im just numbfuct. Like a zombie wondering around aimlessly looking for nothing.

So yeah. i really hope to meet that someone tmrw. Correct or not Sharr? Heh.

Excuse me while i walk around with my big big big phone and yell onto it in the shopping mall.


Oh by the way, you can scroll wayyyy down to tag me up. The very bottom of this blog please... good boys/girls...

And please. I dont like people who, tYpe LiKE THis...

Thank you very much.


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